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August 30, 2017

  She had her hair up in a bun. The strings of her bathing suit peeking out a tank top that says be bold. She was bold sitting in her swimsuit in public music blasting from her blue tooth. Other people are looking at her and she’s laughing with her best friend about the cheesy joke she just made. She laughed at her own jokes as she only found herself funny. She says to her best friend Society is messed up and her friend looks at her funny. No I mean look around you She looks around and shrugs I see people she says These people…around us…are staring at me Her friend sighs What I can’t lie on the beach in my swimsuit No you should. She replies The sun shimmered on her brown skin and on the tires of her wheelchair. As she screamed at the top of her lungs when the waves came in and immersed in her body Her smile was brighter than the sun. She just wanted to be bold and you know she was. Oh, how she had a heart ...

Inedible Cotton Candy

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Brittle and bare trees sway back and forth. I hear the whisper in the whisk of the wind as it dances on the edges of my ears when the sliding door slams shut behind me. The shattering force of the wind caresses the back of my neck as I swerve on a sharp corner of this deserted, twisted alley. I think about how much strength it took to divide the wet cement into broken holes. These bent corners of cement are like the edges of my heart that want to scream sadness into the rainbow-like sky above me. The sky is so bright and bubbly; two characteristics that I want to obtain. It evokes my undivided attention towards the highway, passing by the florescent-lit Chevron where my body shivers as the wind hits me harder. Traffic here is always insane; a car almost hits me despite knowing the crosswalk sign is on. The rush of the cars makes my once-numbed face feel again as if a nurse is putting numbing cream onto your skin before she inserts the IV into your warm-blooded skin. Cars on the ...

Pause

I couldn’t imagine the lengths she would go for me. Maybe it was my lack of faith or maybe I thought she’d had left by now. It was this one day that changed my perspective on her. We decided to go out to North Vancouver. We usually plan out where we go a few days in advance due to the six wheels attached to my body. We’re at this market and we’re both bored to death. I can't count how many times I’ve been to the quay in North Vancouver. There’s just water and boats sailing around. That’s cool and all but all I crave these days is an adventure. I want to swim in the water even though I can't actually swim. Does that matter? If I drown, I know you’ll jump in to save me.  I want my body to become messy and disgusting by the powers of nature. You start looking up “what to do in Vancouver” as if we’re tourists in our own city. As you make suggestions, I laugh at the fact that we aren’t prepared for many of these but maybe I was being a tad dramatic. Could you blame me? She is...

My deathbed

My face is staring at the ceiling  contemplating why I’m laying on this sterile, blue bed. My wisdom teeth are about to vanish from this mouth as if twenty is the age where you have all the wisdom you need. My eyelids are drifting down into this abyss of needles and tubes. Nurses are scattered around me waiting to scar my skin. Blue, latex gloves snapped on their fresh skin ready to puncture my sterilized flesh with shiny needles glimmering with hope  only to crash my spirit in the coming hours. The anesthesiologist carefully pushes the drugs  into my melancholy veins while this excruciating pain  spreads all over my body  unapologetically numbing me as if I’m not numb enough. These delicate eyelids burst  open like it is the last moment as me Strip me from everything I’ve got to give yet still expect more. The everlasting contradicting myth; They say removing wisdom teeth makes you wiser. ...

Ataraxia

  The air I breathe In and out With a sound of doubt Lingering throughout my ears Saying yes, while others say no Having to bear that pain Day and night Isn ’ t easy When I die inside The thumping gets louder That thumping of music Theres a knot in my stomach At times When I have no clue What to do The beat of the song Calms the mind Cant define serenity Just a wave of emotion Which flows out So much pain That I fall Within a heartbeat The images Oh, the images Trance into my mind Like a bright wave Of yesterday's Memories Waiting in the office Is like Waiting for that exam result So stressful You want to know But At the same time Your scared that It might label you As a failure As I continue my journey I long to desire The capitative  sound I adore My music Giv...

The part

Am I blind? I can't see anymore where we left off. You're here, I'm there. A never ending story. Continues through air. Emotion That kills The heart Looking at you makes me die inside Like a flower which has no water Dead inside Where is that spark? Before we part I want to say Your that part of me that will never disappear The part that was sacred, deep and intense No one And I mean No one can replace the feeling you dropped upon me The day you called me beautiful and hugged me then vowing your mine Knowing one day you would walk away 

Hours and days

From the day I met you until now. It's so different; The memories we made and the bond we retain. And I still remember the day I was confused. I dont remember why.  So shy, but confident Our bond has grown so much As if a tree is blossoming in the spring The root represent a base, the trunk represents trust and the leaves swaying back and forth are us Our weird ways and craziness How we put up with each other We've seen the good and bad but we're still tight like a rope Our days are countless but there are more hours to come And nothing can tear us apart We are strong like the air around us.  Your gentle touch makes everything better As if there is a raging storm in my heart but ur gentle voice blows it away And our little jokes makes me laugh at the most odd places No where you are or where I am We're still so close Our days pass by like a wave of memories  and our hours...